Back to being happy and positive and cheerful.
I’ll reply to my messages eventually.
sorry.
So this happened.
Note to self: As much as doodling on your arm with blood is hilarious fun, don’t let it go on your white duvet cover..
Bought a new eye liner sharpener the other day because the rest I’ve taken the blades out of and thrown away in a moment of strength.
The worst part? I know the blades are going to end up in my makeup box at some point and I’ll have to buy a new one.
SHUT UP BRAIN.
See this is why I think I’m borderline.
I can’t talk to anyone because no one fucking likes me.
People lie. People aren’t going to say they don’t like you, that they’re not you’re friend, that you’re fat.
People can’t be trusted. All they do is lie. I’m just this annoying presence that they put up with because they’d feel bad, or are worried I’d go and top myself or something.
No one actually likes me or gives a shit.
And the worst part? Even if people did say ‘no that’s not true I care’ no you fucking don’t. You don’t know me, I’m a faceless person on the other side of the internet.
No one cares.
Everybody lies.
Anonymous asked: If you think you're fat, which I'm not saying you are, why don't you do something positive about it and try and change things
Because the only way I know how to lose weight is by starving myself. I can never find a happy medium for a decent length of time, it always reverts to binging on biscuits and then starving. And I don’t want to lose a healthy amount of weight either, I know I won’t stop and I can’t get back into this again.
100 Reasons to Recover: Tumblr Tuesday
Here are some awesome blogs/twitters/websites for this week that will give your dashboard a dose of inspiration:
http://mentalwealthsouthampton.tumblr.com/ - I’ve just started up a tumblr promoting positive mental well-being that’s full of positive quotes, and pictures and gifs of cute…
So I haven’t posted much to this blog because I’ve been working on happy inspirational ones for mental wealth.
I suppose I can only take so much happiness at any one time.
Literally feel awful. Sitting here wanting to throw up and cut myself so much. I’m so hideous, I looked at my thighs in the mirror this morning, they are covered in cellulite.
I seriously fucking hate myself right now and I have no one to turn to because I don’t do telling people.
I don’t know what to do. :(